The last few days have been quite stressful. I am still no closer to making a decision on what to do with the rest of my life. Yes, I’m being melodramatic but my PhD will be my baby for three years and will determine my future career. It is a big and scary decision. Yesterday morning I was leaning more towards PhD B until I had a meeting with my supervisor (and mentor). Best Friend and I expected Supervisor to remain neutral and not try to influence my decision. We were so wrong. He immediately started expounding all the benefits for PhD A. Part of me thinks he just doesn’t want to lose me and wants me to stay at my home uni. But another, more rational part, knows that he has obviously been thinking about me and what is best for me. He has always had my best interests at heart and I wouldn’t have achieved what I have without him.
In fact, the last few days have shown me just how blessed I am to have so many wonderful people in my life who really care about me. I just wanted to record my appreciation of them so that next time I’m feeling down I can look back on this and realise how awesome my friends are. In no particular order (as they say on tv talent shows), here are some of the things I’d like to say to my amazing friends.
Thanks for going out with me on Tuesday night and making me laugh. At times you are like a little ray of sunshine and you make me smile. Other times I want to slap you, especially when you vowed to find my mysterious blog. I’m sorry I ever let it slip that I have one. I know you probably spent ages trying to find it, I hope you haven’t but if you’re reading this now, GO AWAY! 😛
I’m so glad we are back to normal again after all the weird sexual tension earlier this year and the awkwardness that followed. You have been a really good friend lately and I really appreciate you trying to understand me. Thank you for talking to me on the phone for hours trying to help me make this decision. Thanks for not trying to sway me even though I know you don’t want me to leave you. And thanks for all the odd emails and texts you’ve sent to try and cheer me up.
You are my newest friend and yet I can’t imagine not having you in my life. You were so amazing about the whole Butter thing and continue to support me even when I’m not making any sense at all. Thank you for dropping what you were doing to visit me in work yesterday just cause I said I needed a hug. Thanks for being there when I need you.
Even though our lives are completely separate now and you live in a different country, you still sense when something’s wrong. I can never hide anything from you (do you know how annoying that is?) I was so glad when you popped up on facebook chat and let me moan to you for a while.
I still don’t really know what’s going on between us but you seemed to sense that I just needed a friend yesterday. It’s hard in work to get a private moment but I know that you were worried about me. I had tried to hide the fact that I had been crying but you saw a tear track I had missed and wiped it away. You held my gaze and I knew that you wanted to make me better. When someone else appeared the moment was gone but you passed me a tissue and tried to make me smile. Thank you for being a friend to me even though you didn’t know what was going on.
Thank you for always being there when I need you. I know we don’t hang out as much anymore since I stopped being a youth leader but you always have my back. I can always ask you to pray for me without worrying that you’ll judge or question me. You are such great listeners and I value all your prayers and words of encouragement.
Basically, my friends are the bee’s knees. I should really tell them that more often.